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Translator notes on the translation of "Trumpet Mouth" (La Ba Hua):
The original mandarin is literally "Trumpet Flower" which is commonly used to refer to the "Morning Glory" flower.
Why has TKA Subbers decided to translate it as "Trumpet Mouth" instead?!!!
Firstly, Frank's initial use of the term has been commonly thought to refer to the shape of her mouth when she gave him CPR in the first episode. (oooh. look at her descending on him!)
Secondly, his subsequent uses have often intended to be insulting. (does it mean he thinks about her mouth often?!)
"Trumpet Flower" might be semantically correct but  does not appear to convey Frank's intentions. (as if she is a flower and not...)
We have therefore decided to go with "Trumpet Mouth", as per Frank's intentions as well as his initial reference to their first meeting with each other. (nice of him to keep thinking of their "first kiss", huh?)

 

Do I….really love En Hao?
Have I….really forgotten about him?

Am I….really able to give up my own happiness for the happiness of my entire family?
I….really don’t know…..
 

Today I ran into that fortune teller from before who told me I would get rich, actually I really don’t want to pay attention to him!
Said something before about me buying a Porsche and that I will have great riches and honour…
Do I? I even almost lost my life!

Forget it, actually right now I’m getting by alright like this, and also don’t want to argue about that stuff with him.
But he said something about the person that I am missing, 要嘛就是現在,要嘛就是今天會遇到。

Who is it? Could it be that it’s Doremi?
How could that be possible…that fortune teller really loves to say nonsense…



But…what if it’s true?
 

Walking through the noisy and bustling night market
Why is it that my heart feels so very cold?

Why is it that everything is dull and tasteless…
Didn’t we agree that we would come to the night market together??
Didn’t we agree to eat up all the snacks together
Where exactly are you??
I…really miss you….
 

Today I ran into Chun Xiong Ge, and he said that the fake landlord from before has been caught!
He also returned to me the gold ring that Zeng Shan Mei had used for mortgage before.

Seeing that gold ring, I suddenly thought of all the things since the first time Zeng Shan Mei and I met each other.
That day when I was tied up inside a cloth sack by the underground loan sharks, it was her who came to save me.
That day when I kept accusing her of stealing my ring, and demanding her return it to me as soon as possible.
That day when I found out that the new tenant who stole my drinks, turned out to be her.
That day when both of our stomachs were hungry, and I taught her to sing songs to divert our attention.
That day, when we pretended to be lovers and participated in the big Hug Competition.
That day, because she came to save me, she was tied together with me by the gangsters demanding repayment…

I really miss the days spent together with her in those three months! ~~

This can’t work! Frank, you need to be more strong!
Don’t think of her anymore!!!
 

I think…this is our very last time together.
On the bus, I thought of a lot of our times together in the past.
What about you? Will you also be like me; do you think of those little moments too?

All of a sudden I don’t want to part with you, but the things that have happened recently have made me realize that I, Cai Jin Lai, am no use in any way.

Actually I should not be with you.
You are a good girl, and suited for an even better person to care for you.

So, after going back to Taipei this time, I think we don’t have to see each other anymore!
So let me say goodbye to you…Zeng Shan Mei…
 

Today I saw Cai Jin Lai’s grandma
Actually…they really do care about each other very much

But we often heartlessly hurt those who care about us the most and those who we care about the most
In the end they hugged, full of deep emotion…I really felt very happy for them
Because Cai Jin Lai…your happiness…your sadness…all affects my heart…
I…….like you…
 

My aunt called me and said that Grandma is sick?!
But only when I rushed over there that same night, did I find out that nothing is wrong with Grandma at all!
In fact she is still healthy and strong, and the hand that hit me didn’t seem to be the slightest bit weak.

But, why did Doremi also come over?
Making me have to sleep in the living room tonight…there are a lot of mosquitoes in the countryside!

But, it’s a good thing she’s here, Grandma seems to like her a lot.
Because of Doremi, I also got to see a rare smile from Grandma.

She…just like what Grandma said, is a very rare, good girl.





So, I shouldn’t hinder her…right?
 

Your bravery…I’m very grateful for
Through trials and tribulations…only do I know…the feelings between us are so inseparable

Of course I had to help you…because you often rush to help me with no thought of your own safety…it is also because of me….

Lastly
Have to thank Grandpa Wan
Every time when we have difficulties, his goodness would come out
You are really like my grandpa…very kind and benevolent…
Thank you….
 

I know my borrowing money from underground loan sharks again isn’t right.
I also already expected to be beaten up by the gangsters demanding repayment.
But…why did you come save me?
The stupidest thing is that you were even tied up with me…do you know you being like that is instead a burden to me? ~~
Don’t tell me that, you don’t know how hard it was for me at that time to make up my mind to leave you guys!

Anyhow, good thing Grandpa Wan rushed over just in time to save us.
Or else I wouldn’t know if I would still have this life to write this blog entry here or not right now!

Ah…Doremi, I know you won’t say things that you won’t do.
I know that when you said you want to treat me to visit the night market, you will definitely take me.
But I think, the best candidate to visit the night market with you…shouldn't be me…
 

That idiot
Because of me…actually went to borrow money from underground loan sharks again

Now you’ve been kidnapped ~~ what to do????
I don’t care! ~~ I can only brace myself and rely on the address on Ah Xing’s card to find it...
To all friends….remember, in case I have an in case…..
Help me call the police….
 

After you gave money to my family, saying it’s to be used for my mom’s surgery

You said a bunch of confusing things

 

I heard it but really didn’t understand it!

What exactly do you want to do??!

Why exactly did you say all that?

From beginning till the end I only remember these few words

These three months that I spent with you have been the worst days of my entire life…

These three months that I spent with you have been the worst days of my entire life…

They keep replaying in my mind……

I am really very sad…..

I don’t know where you are going….

Are you really leaving me????

Can you not go????

I said that these three months that I spent with you have been the worst days of my entire life…

Actually I was lying to you.

 

You also know, the more urgent and critical the moment gets, the easier it is for me to say lies.

And maybe, I just want let myself to completely disappear from your heart.

 

Actually, these three months, only because of you, did I find out what I lack the most.

Before, only Ah Xing would treat me well, but he still had no way to give me that kind of family warmth.

 

I really thank you, and hope that after this you and Jin En Hao will have a very good future.

I will be thinking of* every single little moment from these three months…

 

In my opinion, these three months, have actually been the happiest days of my entire life.

 

[*Translator's note: The phrase used is '想念', which has a more beautiful meaning than just 'thinking of'. It is used to describe how one feels when separated from something good -- how one misses something, thinks of fondly, remembers with longing, longs to see/feel again, reminisces, etc.]

 

I’m not willing to owe En Hao money

So the decision after my discussion with Dad is that we will mortgage the house first…

 

Even now, that rascal still doesn’t get it

Still saying stuff about how he will take responsibility in front of my parents

Still saying stuff about how he will take the whole family out of the country for a vacation once Mom gets better

Can you stop giving my family expectations

And stop playing this act??!

It’s enough!!!

The hug Ling Long gave me today…is my strength to keep on going…

Thank you

My best friend for always!!!

Why exactly do I care about what you say?
Looking at the cell phone you gave me…

 

How come I’m so useless? ~~
Didn’t I say my heart wouldn’t be softened?………….
 

Before meeting you, I always believed that I…

Believed that I was a rich person.
Always overambitious, thinking that without needing to work hard,
I would be able to have success one day.

 

Only after meeting you, did I realize that I’m not anything at all…

When your family needed help most, I actually can’t give anything at all…

Cai Jin Lai…you’ve been looked down upon by the woman you love…